The irony of life is that change is the only constant.
If I look back at my four years post high school, it almost seems as if I’m watching a movie flash before me, no year has been the same but each year has brought about a change, both welcome and unwelcome. With every year that passes our situation changes, our perspective changes and sometimes even the people we choose to care about changes.
We gain friends and lose some, fall in and out of love, ride the roller coaster of highs and lows and each of these experiences molds us into, perhaps, the person we were always meant to be. But don’t you ever, even just for a second, wish that time could just stop? That we could just press pause and hold on to what we have at that particular moment before life as we know it changes forever?
Recently, I have been hoping for this moment of pause, to just hold on to everything I once had before I decide to move forward and let go of everything. Just a single moment to appreciate what once was before life happens and it all irrecoverably changes. A moment to enjoy being 21 without the doubts and decisions that thoughts of the future hold. Ah, to be 16 and carefree again, to make decisions without having to worry about the endless strings of consequences they will result in.
People say that your university years are the best years of your life, I beg to differ. If anything these four years have taught me that life can you everything you’ve dreamed of only to take it away in a second, that you’ll drift apart from people you thought will always be a part of you for no real reason other than the change that occurs between high school and becoming somewhat of an adult (if you can call it that).
And that is why I hope with a treacherous hope that I can have a moment (or two), to go back to the moment before everything changed and just press pause. To hold onto, even for just a moment, the friendships that were, the feelings that were and the person that I once was.
But as John Green so perfectly (as always) puts it, “The world is not a wish granting factory.”
“Certain things, they should stay the way they are. You ought to be able to stick them in one of those big glass cases and just leave them alone.”
― J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye